How Much Can Never Be Measured

Monday, October 13, 2014

When we make decisions, we have to ask ourselves not how much are we willing to risk, but how much will be at stake, how much will be gone, not how much will be left.

We do not know what’s there for us in the future, but we have to make decisions—rational ones—to create a plan for the little bit ahead of us. Today, I made one even though I knew at the same moment I might backpedal tomorrow.

Through countless rethinking and listing of pros and cons, I have come to a conclusion. Although it took the storm two months in my head that it ruined the flowers, I have ended it by the rescue I made: A lid to seal the unnecessary, unconfirmed feelings before they grow into trees planted somewhere they are clearly not supposed to.

How much will be at stake is just the same amount of how much will be gone no matter how much I am willing to risk, so I’d rather hold back than hold nothing at all. At the end of the day, how much can never be measured. All I know is right now, it’s everything.